A Placeholder

Crave me

when it’s convenient

I was a bit lenient

Disguised it as going steady

But you weren’t ready

Supposed to be a good time

But some days I would cry

Brutally picked at my brain

Almost convinced me

I was insane

Treated me so small

Claimed it was all my fault

Took responsibility

for things I didn’t do

Hoping I could

stay with you

Should’ve realized

this wasn’t my happy place

Only occasionally

it felt a safe space

Awfully inconsistent

Yet made yourself

the victim

Couldn’t even do

the bare minimum

So much disrespect,

What’s so hard

about giving context?

Perhaps you see me

as less

Only wanted to be

a good friend to you

A good partner for you

Bundled my affection

Give me your attention

Quick to leave me in the dirt

Did I forget my worth?

I try not to sink,

I’m amazing

I think

Didn’t listen to my friends

Warned it was a cycle

that never ends

Maybe I’m lucky

I’m sure I’m one

of many

When you get lonely

Don’t act like you own me

You’ve gotten bolder

But I won’t be

your placeholder

I truly wish you

the best

Hope you grow up

for the next