Maligned Mind

You’ve consumed my being Hard to pinpoint the beginning Four, five years So many tears Feeding my fears So ugly and scary Attacking when happy You are colossal next to me Keeping me up at night Nothing feels right Stay in bed the following day Energy and motivation taken away Time is senseless You tell me I’m worthless “Why do you seek bliss, if your future does not exist?” My brain is foggy My observations, third person Am I really here, or am I just floating? Perhaps I’m drowning So frightened by your power Give me back my crown Every day is a struggle Don’t want to stick around I’ve been distant, I apologize Mental health lows on the rise I don’t want you to know me like this I don’t want you to think I am this I’m not crazy Please embrace me Sharing isn’t easy But I hope it starts the healing Don’t want to keep it inside I really want to see the light Burying it has gotten heavy But now I think I am ready Depression is a curse Makes my world so much worse No longer a stranger But I’m still in danger I thought it was a phase but it seems to be my place I know this is a lot Please don’t be alarmed I’m still funny and vibrant When I’m not silent Deep down my dark soul I want to have more control I need a better roommate You make me feel so alone